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Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Monday, August 18, 2008
Growing Up- at 32 years old
So it has been awhile since I actually wrote anything. That will tell you what a whirlwind I have been in. It is a good whirlwind, though. Some major things have changed with my job and commute situation, but that is not all. I have had some things pop up and kick me in the pants as far as some other things in my life are concerned and it got me thinking, how comfortable is too comfortable?
I think I was in a place where I had gotten a bit cocky about how my life was going. (And thinking it was all because of me.) Well, I got a wake up call and I am so glad cause it refocused me to look forward and remember the need to improve on everything, everyday. It isn't discontentment, but a desire to use this life to do something more than make yourself comfortable and happy. I feel like I'm really an adult all of a sudden. I was fighting it all the way. But now all my immature notions are falling down quickly and that is the best thing that could happen. I will avoid saying, "I am woman, hear me roar," but that is kind of how I feel. I guess going back to high school and seeing all these teenagers has reminded me I'm not them anymore. I'm something a lot different, but better.
Preachy sounding, maybe, but it is what has been on my mind- and isn't that what this blogging thing is all about?
Well, otherwise, I have been writing more, creative-wise, and remembering how much I used to like that. I have to say, I could whip up a quick A+ poem 10 minutes before English class in high school, cause I usually forgot to do it as homework the night before. It does use a different part of your brain that sometimes gets left behind when you "grow up". You have to drop that self-editing part of your adult brain and allow yourself to say something that may be a little pretentious or silly, or something someone else may not like, but is almost always honest. And honesty is the whole point.
Wish I could say things as well as this guy (heaven):
I think I was in a place where I had gotten a bit cocky about how my life was going. (And thinking it was all because of me.) Well, I got a wake up call and I am so glad cause it refocused me to look forward and remember the need to improve on everything, everyday. It isn't discontentment, but a desire to use this life to do something more than make yourself comfortable and happy. I feel like I'm really an adult all of a sudden. I was fighting it all the way. But now all my immature notions are falling down quickly and that is the best thing that could happen. I will avoid saying, "I am woman, hear me roar," but that is kind of how I feel. I guess going back to high school and seeing all these teenagers has reminded me I'm not them anymore. I'm something a lot different, but better.
Preachy sounding, maybe, but it is what has been on my mind- and isn't that what this blogging thing is all about?
Well, otherwise, I have been writing more, creative-wise, and remembering how much I used to like that. I have to say, I could whip up a quick A+ poem 10 minutes before English class in high school, cause I usually forgot to do it as homework the night before. It does use a different part of your brain that sometimes gets left behind when you "grow up". You have to drop that self-editing part of your adult brain and allow yourself to say something that may be a little pretentious or silly, or something someone else may not like, but is almost always honest. And honesty is the whole point.
Wish I could say things as well as this guy (heaven):
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